During the Holy Spirit weekend at La Bonne Vie Ranch while the Stations of The Cross were being shown on Friday, I felt inspired to write the following:
How many disciples stayed to watch the crucifixion? Only John and Mary. Who will stay with me until the end? Who will endure my agony? Who will come with me to my crucifixion? Will it be you? Only a few stayed. Many were called, but few are chosen. Not all who say Lord will follow me.
My passion is a love story. Do you love me? This is what it takes to be my disciple. Are you willing to take up your cross and follow me? Whom shall I send? Will it be you? The path to Heaven is filled with suffering. Will you follow me? Only a few will answer the call. I have come to set the world on fire and how I wish it were already blazing! My mother suffered with me. She felt every single pain I felt because our hearts were united.
On Saturday evening when the baptism of the Holy Spirit was happening Todd came up to me to bless me with the oil and I was standing with my eyes closed when suddenly I saw the face of Jesus and I was shocked because as Todd was putting the oil on my forehead it was actually Jesus through Todd. I saw him with his Crown of Thorns which was unexpected and his robe looked dirty. The background looked to appear gray as if there was smoke. I felt his presence and that’s when soon after felt an electric current over my body and fell to the ground. As I was laying down I felt the heat pass over through my entire body and laid there for a while and I heard Jesus tell me I am here in the room and my mother is here, too.